I am not a spiritual person but something happened last night that has me thinking. So my 95 year old grandfather was put on hospice care on Tuesday. I felt guilty that I haven't seen him in a while but my dad suggested that I may not want to see him in the state he was in. I wanted to remember him as I knew him. Anyways, my regret about not seeing him the last year will always be there. But last night, while working (I work night shift for a PD) I just got an urge or a feeling that I should call the brethren home where he was and talk to him on the phone. I knew he wouldn't be able to say anything back to me. I called at 130am, the nurse went in and I heard her say his name loud and tell him that his grandson (and she said my name) was on the phone to speak to him. I told him I loved him and I thanked him for everything. I also told him that it was ok to go to heaven now and that my grandmother was waiting for him. I said I would see him again some day. I said I loved him again and I hung up the phone. Well, my dad called me at 8am while I was driving home and let me know my grandfather passed at 3am. So I kind of feel like I got a sign from God to call him and tell him that it was ok to get to heaven. I want to think that he could hear me in his final moments and that I helped him pass over. Is that weird? I just feel really good that I was the last voice he heard in his life on earth and that I got to say goodbye. I think my thoughts on religion and god are going to be evaluated now. I'm sorry for the long post but you guys know how this den is. It's a place I can vent and feel comfortable about it. So thank you for reading this and I'd love your thoughts, especially from the religious people here. RIP grandpa
